One of the things in my past that I could kick myself for is the fact that when I was 16 I took 'O' level physics.....didn't try my best and scored only a grade 'D'. Can't say I was fussed at the time - I hadn't enjoyed the lessons, delivered if I recall by a dodgy teacher who looked like Eric Morcambe and wore a jacket with leather elbow patches! - if only I'd worked a bit harder in those lessons and scraped a 'C'.......
Because of the rules from high....I have to have GCSE science at grade 'C' or above to get on any ITT course.....consequently, I am half way through a GCSE science course at City College and it is HORRIBLE!
The lectures are terrible. Delivered by a lecturer (nice enough bloke - not the best teacher I've ever had!) who is clearly only interested in teaching to the exam....the 'knowledge' is transmitted in such a way - we might as well be writing on slates!!!! it's not about understanding science...it's about remembering scientific facts facts facts.
This is an absolute nightmare for me as I have not been in a chemistry or biology class since I dropped them in my options at school! OK- so, Biology, to a certain extent, I find not too bad...but Chemistry....AHHHHH - it's like a foreign language!!!! To make matters worse we have module exams on both of these in March! I am spending much precious time (which I'd rather be spending on the degree) trying to memorise this useless rubbish...none of which is at all interesting to me or relevant to teach 5 - 7 year olds! I think this is what annoys me the most....anyone who knows me will know that I HATE TIME WASTING - it really annoys me....and learning this stuff to get the grade - which then I know I'll forget and never use again.
I am really really really really worried that I might mess this up........I'm even wondering what other job I'll be good at other than Infant school teaching :-((((((...I've not had that thought since I started the degree until now...it's tragic!